I wonder if this will be like my journal that I never write in

I don’t fancy myself hip enough to blog because I use words like ‘hip’ and I’m 23 – but I’m going to jump on the bandwagon anyways simply because writing things down for know one to read seems a bit silly

First I need to apologize for my lack of writing skill – I don’t understand grammar – It just never seemed to sink in for me – So I’m very sorry but I write the same way I talk

I just decided to try something new – just to write – I think it may help me sort some thing out in my mind and in my life possibly – for whatever reason, lately I’ve really been lacking in any sort of dialog with myself – I think its become a bit problematic - its been a long time actually, since I’ve attempted to really question - like REALLY question things about myself, about the world, about human nature ext.… because frankly sometimes its seems easier to move through the world without doing that – that isn’t to say that I don’t question at all – I do – somehow I feel like its vital to my survival – but at the same time I let a lot slide – so in writing this blog, it is my best attempt at letting a little less slide – if I have a though about something or I’m confused about something, ill do my best to write about it – I have a feeling, more often then not, it will be because I’m confused about something – I get confused a lot and I think I get confused for two reason – first, anyone who attempts to ask, not just how things happen, by WHY things happen, will inevitable get a little confusing – secondly, the time that I’ve grown up in is simply just complicated and, in turn, confusing – it would be extremely hard to argue that its not – I just wanted to justify my confusion here so that I didn’t come off as sounding like someone that constantly has a perplexed look on their face – I’m sure its been known to happen but generally I think I have a typical neutral expression most of the time – I think I’ve really perfected it because the majority of the time I’m not neutral at all

Wow I have just discovered my first blogger dilemma – rambling – I bet if we took a poll of top 5 blogger problems that one would definitely make the list – also on the list would be the issue of conclusion – these two things have always been a problem for me but somehow I really don’t feel the need to do anything about it – as a result of this, the style of my blogs will feel like a giant rant, with very little to no conclusion – I’m ok with it

That is all