I'm working on it

I've been thinking a lot lately about the way people present themselves - about how much of people is there authentic self - and about how much of them is something that they have consciously chosen to put out into the universe - basically I've been thinking about how fake is to fake and why any of us even bother

The thing is I know that everyone does this type of things, to a certain extent - we all dress a certain way in different social situations, we all speck a certain way around certain people, and we all act in a way that we think is our most flattering - again we all do this to a certain degree - i know i definitely do this - I would like to think that I only do this because some things just aren't suitable in certain arenas - which is true - but the other reason I'm assuming i do this is hard to pinpoint - i know that i don't like that anyone does or that i do it - this so what is it then?

I always tend to come back to the same conclusion on many issues - that being socialization - i think we do it because everyone does it - its human nature ok so while i do believe this is probably the reason we all do it i refuse to leave it at that - constantly processing the best way to portray yourself is no way for people to move through the world

lI've been making short term goals for myself lately and it seems to really be working for me - I've just been focusing on a small part of myself that i think needs some work - when i feel myself slipping into that one old habit i make a conscious effort to counteract it at that moment - i don't try to improve everything about myself all at once - i have a lot of flaws, its a proses but i feel very gratified with the small changes that i notice so I've decided that this will be one of my new focuses - simply to be more authentic - mainly because i think it is so important for people to get to know each other - really get to know each other - i think one of the most important things is the world is to have strong human relationships and i don't see how we can truly do this if we are only seeing the parts of people that they think they want us to see - if that makes sense - i do desperately want all spectrum of relationships with people and i want them to be real - so that's what I'll be working on for myself

sounds simple enough

I just appreciate so much when people show me themselves - I realize how difficult a venture that is for anyone but I'm never going to stop giving those people a lot of credit - i see it - sometimes things get a bit blurry for me but when i take a step back from everything else, one of my favorite things about myself is that 'i can see it' in people - that makes me really happy